tulisan hampa

Been ages since the last post. I told you, I dislike April. Just this year perhaps I hate it worse. Not just the fact the I have to re-start the sucky long distance relationship, but also the fact that I hardly can make it to fly there to have a proer Summer holiday, so far not. That wish still exists though, at least until a next couple of months. Meanwhile, I am re-listening to 90s songs and along that realised how much I have grown; from the American to British style of English, the perspective of seeing how life can be miserable enough when you can't say NO, until how to bow down to my own self vulnerability when it comes to heartbreaking circumstances. I have started running again though, the rain doesn't seen to stop me too  long. I have a cable telly now in the living room; gives me more access to The Voice, Game of Thrones, NBA highlights and of course PORNOGRAPHY baby (in music videos, you think?) I so look forward to seek out something else there, probably E! news...

Come, see, what we all talk about People movin' to the moon Stop, baby, don't go, stop here Never stop livin' here Till it eats the heart from your soul Keeps down the sound of your Silent sigh, silent sigh, silent sigh Silent, silent, silent Keeps down all, move me down Could we love each other? Come, see, what we all talk about People movin' to the moon Stop, baby, don't go, stop here Never stop livin' here Till it eats the heart from your soul Keeps down the sound of your Silent sigh, silent sigh, silent sigh Silent, silent, silent Keeps down all, move me down But don't love each other No, don't love each other Never gonna be the sound, get it on See, si, see, si See, si, silent, silent Silent, silent, silent, silent Silent, silent Please don't, all move me down Silent, silent, silent Silent, silent sigh, silent sigh Move me down, we're gonna love each other

Avfest's 50 km away from my city. I visit this suburban area every week, on Friday morning until evening. A weekly review on the small branch. I don't even know why the company sent me for this task. I mean, they can ask the branch manager to come by the headquarter and weekly-report it. I just don't understand. Anyway, here I am again, hitting the crazy small and quiet road to Avfest. I remember the first time I went this small village along, I was excited, I thought this was going to be something or somewhere refreshing and fun rather than working in a small cubicle in my office uptown there. Nay, the seventh week drove me insane. I mean, the people are nice, the always smile at me and ask what I am up to. But come on, it was like a very quiet village, dry and quiet. Most people are farmers if not a seller in traditional market, the rest are school kids, and they are quiet too. This time today, my twelfth visit and nothing's changed. Only the road is now dirtier a...