tulisan hampa

the only thing that I am so bad at is keeping promise. today, for the most glorious day of my life, I succeeded making people satisfy by what I have done. "terima kasih semuanya sudah hadir di acara perhimpunan pekerja muda hari ini. saya nggak  mau bertele-tele kasih  sambutan yang hanya akan bikin rekan sekalian muak sama saya. saya jelas cuma  mau bersyukur kepada Tuhan semesta alam yang sudah melancarkan semua urusan kita, memberikan kesehatan dan terus melindungi kita semua. saya juga nggak  lupa berterima kasih kepada rekan catering  yang mau capek  masak untuk hidangan sedap hari ini, jangan khawatir, saya yakin sedap kok  karena terlihat dari susunannya di meja prasmanan sana" I pointed out the long table with buffet set. I think it looked delicious, really, it smelled good and my eating appetite suddenly cut my speech off. "mari semuanya, dengan ini saya resmi buka acara perhimpunan pekerja muda 2019. sukses untuk kita semua, dan sukses un...

autumn is inevitably something that i always fall for. i have got so many assignments and things to do in this season. this year, is the reverse version of last year. i used to enjoy myself in peace, holiday and relaxation every year end. this year, is somehow fantastically different; i am busy and occupied. no, no.. hold on. i love it. as i always love to be busy and occupied. what matter is, this business lately sort of engage me with tonnes of new things to adapt. the disjuncture of my current mind box is totally exhilarating. i get to see what i have never seen before, i cope myself to do things that i have been imagined of. and i come to the corner where everything seems so blurry yet awesome. regardless how many people are going to scream their envious thoughts and inspirations, i find myself behaving as what my back brain told me to. my heart is unable to react to any sensitive thing, then this insensitivity arouse me to care more about what is written in the ...

just another report. I found myself astounded by the fog around my flat. it is a bright day and breezy weather. oh, how I adore autumn. I can't wait to go home, and return back here to finish my first semester exam. I need a distraction.

I am listening to dubstep, far before i stepped my feet in the UK. I love trance, quite a long time ago since i was still in high school. I do sports, i cannot live without moving my body, i sometimes dance. I enjoy eating, I am always learning to cook though i never be able to. I crave knowledge and new things,  i cannot stand knowing what i know because i do not know anything. I plan lots of things, however you think i ended up ignoring and changing things. I feel the pain, i smile at most of the time but it does not mean i am numb. I write things, i say them often, and also write some, things that i cannot say. I live to travel. staying in one place makes me itchy and useless. I like helping people, seeing other happy is my pleasure and my remedy. I predict, i assume as if i know what might positively happen, just to make myself better. I make network, i make friends, i am spontaneous and envious. I run, i always run as if time is running after me and i compete with myself. I s...

"oops., sorry, did I hit you?" gua kaget banget ada orang di balik pintu musholla kampus. pintu dorong itu mungkin kena kaki atau badannya tadi. "umm, no.. I'm fine" cowok itu senyum ramah dan mempersilahkan gua lewat sebelum dia masuk. Gua membatin kegantengan cowok itu, aksennya sih Inggris kental, tapi mukanya timur tengah. Tinggi, kurus dan muslim. Rambutnya berantakan, nggak keriting dan nggak disisir rapi. "Shoot!! I am so sorry!" gua menumbuk badan tinggi dengan papan skateboard dari balik pintu perpustakaan. "Oh, damn. Are you okay?" agaknya cowok kurus tinggi ini khawatir juga sama muka gua yang panik dan merah karena kedinginan. "Yeah, I am sorry, I didn't know you were there with that board in front of you" gua beneran yakin kali ini papan besar itu pasti kena perutnya paling nggak. "no, no, it hit me, but I am fine, I thought you were shocked and bounced back by the door" dia balik nanya da...