I call you, Skylar

I will never forgive myself if I ever abandon you. You are by far the biggest achievement in my life. There is no word at the moment that I can type no matter how much I want to express my feelings for you.

Day and night, up and down, happy and sad, I always think about you, and how grateful I am for having you in my life as a reward at the same time responsibility.

Thank you for making me grow up, getting wiser, more patient, loving and feeling more sense in this cruel world. Thank you for lightning up my gloomy life and giving me meaning of survival.

Thank you for smiling at me or holding my finger everytime you latch on me.

Thank you for all sleepless night you gave me yet I enjoyed a lot.

Thank you for being exist and empower me everytime I feel weak.

Thank you for becoming a reason why this life is eventually worth living.

Thank you for adding value as a human in me, and you are why I always want to go home.

Thank you for reminding me that although this life is tough, I can always go thru it.

That you for being sunshine at the same time rainbow in my day and night.

My deal Skylar Shabrina Kurniawan, I love you, indefinitely. ❤️

Born in Jakarta, 18 May 2016, 00:16. My love, my life, my angel.

About Time

I am so sick of people who don't appreciate time.
Like, they know it's something they cannot buy, they cannot negotiate and they cannot turn back. But they waste it anyway.
I am so sick of people who cannot manage time.
Like, they think they can always chill and take as much as they can take while everyone else is abandoned.
I am so sick of people who aren't aware of time.
Like, they forget other have their own priorities too and when they think of themselves they're bending everyone's.
May people like this kind regret safely in the future.
Bitch.

Regards,
the one who's always late because of waiting what could have not be waited for.

Happy Birthday Brother

YAY!
Maternity leave means blogging blogging and blogging. I cannot remember when was the last time I wrote blog? GOD! If there was such a rule, I'd been sent to hell for bailing writing for so long.

So this month is supposed to be my due-month of giving birth. I. CANNOT. WAIT.

That is like the only three words I can say.
All the pain worth the wait I guess.
I don't know. I've been losing track of writing yet I still express myself on social media.

I started a hashtag poetwit on my @pastelarasaty at the same time reading novels and books to help me alter my stress. My husband is always around, so comfortable.
Family support is always endless, I miss my dad though.

Brother's coming next month. Yes, the baby brother whom I'm celebrating his birthday today. SOOOO HAPPY and I cannot hardly wait to deliver the baby and see how she looks like.
Yes, she. It's a girl. At least so far that's what the USG said. I don't really mind if it turns about a boy.

Meanwhile.
Seriously, maternity leave is SUPER BORING so please bear with my writing for the next few days. I might start talking about my current position at work, projects, research and dream in progress.
That's it for May 11th. May the blissful May be with you and me and us and this world.