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When I first glance at this morning's wall in my room, I would just say, "Oh, again, I've got this syndrom when I only want to be in Jehan's arms.." I've got nothing to desire because my dad's just canceled our plan to buy me a new notebook. It's gonna be the cheap one anyway.. He's so mind about spending money more than one million for such "unimportant" stuff. Thanks Dad! Keeping me as your daughter is worth than anything. It's good to have you. And mom, keep talking about how my relationship should really go. I wonder what's on her mind about Jehan. Has she really known him as well as those people who have seen him? I still have a probation mind that my parents would kill me -or Jehan- or both of us if we really get tired of hiding and decided to have a 'running-weddin' (kawin larri) akh.. I am impacted of translating a topic in my DEVcommTECH assignment. I hate how English have had change my life so much. I became so P...

Lagi lagi nangis, agak busuk tapi yah, proses healing lah.. pasti ke depannya nggak seberat ini. Gue nggak ngerti apa yg Babhank n Papa liat dri seorang JEHAN. Guys, you would love him if you know him.. ugh, berat dan menjemukan. Sehari nggak puasa ini jadi metode ampuh untuk me-review dosa. Ampuun, kalo besok gue mati, apa yang gue bawa,, *ngomongin mati, jd inget absen kelas yg nggak mencantumkan nama gue tadi, TAIK! Besok pasti lebih melelahkan, entah kenapa gue lebih malas untuk mengeluh dan bilang kata 'lelah'. PErjuangan masih panjang dan menuju kemenangan masih di awang2.. akankah Aboy pulang membawa secercah harapan untuk mengajak gue mengarungi bahtera hidup yang kian ganas ombaknya. Oh, hidup... kalo diarungi berdua emang indah, tapi kalo diarungi berdua tanpa pelampung, apa masih indah?? kan berenang jg ada kapasitasnya? haduh, sekarang perumpamaan gue makin aneh. Situasi kelas juga nggak bgitu asik. haduh... Tuhan, bila hidup ini terlalu berharga untuk dilewatkan, a...

oKE, ini adalah salah satu saat dimana gue merasa sangat nyaman menceritakan apa yg sedang gue rasakan. Pemberontakan orangtua gue terhadap hubungan gue dengan Jehan kian parah. Gue mengakui bahwa gaya pacaran kami agak lebay; telpon sms sangat intens!!, pergi bareng hampir tiap hari. Umm.that;s all. Lebay? namanya juga kasmaran. Ini adalah saat2 dimana gue merasa sangat nyaman punya pacar. FUCK! Jehan is sweet and loving. It ain't enough?? Not for them. ThEY want the BEST. Dunno. Alibi mereka selalu mentok pada "kamu masih kuliah, ntar kalo udah lulus baru boleh pacaran" NICE mom, NICE dad!! I really wanna hug you when you guys said that. Apalagi yg harus gue bilang tentang orangtua gue they're SO KIND. Loving dan bijaksana. Mreka mencukupi gue; LAHIR bATIIN..hoho. Gue sangat beruntung besar di keluarga yg begitu hangat. Sperti kata Mama, 'Kamu pnya orgtua, adik2, staff kantor, sodara2 yg peduli dan perhatian sama kamu. Apa nggak cukup? Buat apalagi sih ada orang...