countdown to another lie

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 Day 3

16 November 2020


Shit, the temptation to go through his property came again. And it hit very hard.

I was shaking but a glass of warm water helped me, I took a deep breath and went back to sleep.

I tried to think positive and I had my affirmation and mantra to get me back to sleep again.


It was horrible, the feeling is horrible.

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