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Last night you asked me to pick up your laundry next to your flat. I refused. You also once asked me if I want to double the key set to your flat. I refused. You texted me about wanting to see me and going out for a movie. I said yes. We talked all night long about stupid things, serious world problem, and absurd imaginations. We shared the same bowl of instant noodles when watching football on telly. I put away the garbage from your flat after our movie night. I think I had the best relationship ever. Until You asked me why I laughed so hard on your jokes and only agreeing to only minor things you ask me, I said "why would I do everything for you? you're not going to marry me anyway, let's have fun while we can and save the serious things for later"

Jarang jarang kan gue bahas soal agama dan mengekspos sisi religius gue yang setipis kumis Iis Dahlia. Interstellar, Alquran dan kekuatan waktu. Interstellar bilang, 1 tahun lamanya di luar angkasa sana, let's say wormhole, atau Jupiter, 12 tahun lamanya. Selanjutnya ada perbedaan 23 tahun lagi di cakupan angkasa berikutnya. Wow, I was like, lama amat yah berarti waktu berjalan di sana. Sekilas kepikiran masuk akal di otak gue, karena perbedaan 12 jam dari Indonesia dan Amerika aja benar adanya kok, jadi kenapa perbedaan waktu dari bumi dan lapisan luar Bimasakti fiktif adanya? Simple logic sejauh ini, karena otak gue emang gak sampe kalo logikanya ketinggian. Dari Al Qur'an yang gue tau, 1 tahun di bumi itu bertahun tahun lamanya di akhirat. Makanya serem kan kalo kita sampe masuk neraka dimana siksaan kita nanti akan sesuai dengan kesalahan kita selama di bumi dikali sekian kalinya. Durasi siksaan kita di neraka juga akan berkali lipat dibanding waktu di bumi. Seinge...

Everything's coming up roses. something   that   you   say   when   a   situation   is   successful   in   every   way Everything's   coming   up   roses   for   George   at   the  moment   h e's   been   promoted   at   work   and   he's   just   got   engaged. Everything's coming up roses. Fig.   Everything   is   really   just   excellent. Life   is   prosperous. L ife   is   wonderful.   Everything   is   coming   up   roses. Q:   How   are things   going?   A:   Everything's   coming   up   roses.

Bulan ke 23 pacaran sama Abel. Refleksinya banyak banget, lebih banyak dari refleksi apapun yang pernah gue sadari. Setiap mau ngeluh, inget lagi bahwa lebih penting bertahan dan berjuang daripada being weak. Setiap mau ngomel, inget lagi bahwa emosi nggak menyelesaikan masalah, justru memperkeruh. Setiap mau manja, inget lagi bahwa being vulnerable malah akan bikin capeknya makin kerasa. Setiap mau komplain, inget lagi Abel has done so much too in his limit to make me happy. Sebenernya bukan seberapa sayang Abel sama gue, jelas beda level dibanding waktu kami baru pacaran dulu. Kali ini lebih ke seberapa kuat kami bisa bareng dan bertahan dengan semua ke-nggak cocok-an kami. Gue rasa Abel selalu punya pilihan untuk sendiri, ngapain buang waktu dan tenaga pacaran sama gue. But then, enggak. He stays. He keeps trying and we keep trying. I think so far we survived the relationship phases. I don't know for how long. I used to know, I just don't know now. Tadinya kepikir...