tulisan hampa

 Okay, I have never dated anyone stupid. Or so I thought. Apparently this is why I fall for stupid guys. 1. I find it amusing to be needed and relied on. As the first child in the family, I am used to be treated as the responsible one, the looked up to one, the strong one and the wise one. I grew up with two younger but bigger brothers and they are very caring, don't get me wrong. They take care of me and they really love me, I can tell. What I always feel about them is I am the liaison unit of my parents to them and I need to always protect them, which leads me to: they are just two stupid kids who need a good role model. 2. I failed, many times. In so many things, I am not a star. Let's say I am the jack of all trades, and my brothers look at me like that. My parents look at me as someone who is not persistent in one particular thing and that I am doing EVERYTHING I CAN without worrying about the QUALITY of what I'm doing. Being failures to them in quite many (not all) th...

Pernahkah kamu bertanya Mengapa dalam tahun kedua  Sepanjang hubungan kita Aku masih saja Menantikan pesanmu semata Dengan sepenuh asa Seolah itu adalah masa Dimana kunantikan kencan kedua? Mungkin orang bilang cinta itu buta Tapi bagiku itu tentang setia Yang selalu kujaga Buat kamu saja Satu-satunya hal yang paling bermakna Dalam hidupku yang hampa Dan belakangan juga Terlalu banyak bebannya Sehingga akhirnya Setiap malam aku berdoa Agar Tuhan menjadikan kita Menjadi sepasang cerita Yang saling terbuka Dalam suka atau duka Walau ternyata Kamu tidak bisa kupunya Karena adat belaka.

You must have dong something GRAND in your life related to me. I know our world don't revolve around each other all the time, but when they do, it strikes me quite HARD and I guess it's something worth discussing. The other day, me & my boyfriend were discussing about protecting our loved ones and preventing external pressure by not exposing too much of oue personal life (& relationship of course). I want to disagree with this. I think once you have decided to be committed and be in a relationship with someone, you have to accept the whole package and be ready for the consequences. Including judgement, comments, rejections, prejudice & of course sabotage. Like it or not, some people with high profile and varying public receptions might also have positive and negative image. All you have to do is just brace yourself towards it. At the end of the day, what matters is what your partner feels. I used to believe that in the world where everything ia over-exposed, it'...

I sent my best friend a brief voice note about my current problem with my boyfriend. It was 1:07 voice note, and he answered with a question: "Is he ready to marry you anytime soon?" WHAT. THE. FUCK. "Well, not now, not anytime soon apparently" "Then he isn't ready for you" "What do you mean?" "Just stop playing around and chasing and going all over again. If he really wants you, he knows what to do. If he doesn't know what to do, or he knows but he doesn't do it, it means he doesn't want you. Do you want to be with someone who doesn't want you? Again?" WHAT. THE. FUCK.