Being in 2026 and letting go the January already

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

January is almost over, and somehow I already feel like time is walking faster than my heart can fully follow. 2026 arrived quietly, without fireworks inside me, but with a subtle shift in the air—like standing at the edge of a new road that looks both inviting and unfamiliar. 

I am truly excited, but also scared.

There’s a new journey unfolding in front of me, and for once, I can’t predict how it will look. No clear map. No perfect plan. Just a direction and a feeling that says, “You have to go anyway.” Excitement comes with that. So does fear. And I’m learning that maybe they are supposed to coexist.

I wake up a bit later when I can these days, just to smell my kids longer and to feel their hug deeper. Because this year, I don't really have MANY goals, just a few but BIG ones. So I think it's a far enough reason to keep up with the kids before losing my time with them and owing them so so many milestones in a year time. Maybe.

What I’m really preparing this year isn’t just the substance—the plans, the skills, the logistics.
I’m preparing my mentality.

How do I stay steady when things feel uncertain?
How do I keep softness without losing strength?
How do I move forward without betraying my own pace?

January teaches me this every year: beginnings are never as clean as we imagine. They are messy, emotional, half-ready. And that’s okay. Letting January go isn’t about failing resolutions—it’s about accepting that growth doesn’t start with perfection. It starts with honesty.

So here I am, being excited, scared and intentional.

Not rushing to become someone else.
Just learning how to walk into myself, one honest month at a time.

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