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A couple of weeks ago, I remember, I was writing about the perks of being famous; one of them is to be remembered when you're dead. Today, one of important people in LSPR, MA Tomasouw passed away. He has suffered from heart attack and the one that finally took him away was cancer. Actually, I didn't know him personally and never had any chance to get close to him in any turn. I've just heard about him,  seen him once at graduation, he was smiling on his wheelchair, congratulating graduates and wandered around as if he was a normal person who enjoyed the celebratory of graduation.  Moreover on the day of his death, I read more than enough notes, and sadness from people that I know who love him. He's very inspirational, he's strong and always smiled. He's the brightest and the wisest, I can tell. What I'm trying to mesmerise is that how much people adore, respect, and miss him.  I don't know what to write anymore. I'm sad. Especially...

It's not yet the longest miles I've gone through. I remember the days that I did not stop thinking of breaking up with you. I wondered if I'm happy and if this is what relationship is. I wondered if you're worth the effort and the tears. I wondered if the times that we spent and the fights that we did were all for one good reason. I wondered if you were happy as I always wanted you too. I wondered if you ever realised how much sometimes I was hurt by your words or your attitude. I wondered if you have ever hated me, and hid it just to avoid conflict. I wondered these days that we've been through. But you know what? The fact that I love you holds me down from thinking of going away from you. The fact that I love you calms down my anger and disappointment. The fact that I love you opens my eyes that you love me too. The fact that I love you heals every sadness and exhaustion. The fact that I love you strengthens me from giving up. The fact that I love ...

So sick of quoting life wisdoms. I read them too often, bahkan saking seringnya, gue sampe nyinyirin semua quotes tentang hidup. Hidup dan bersosialisasi itu ibarat survival method-nya bunglon. Dia berhasil bertahan dari buruan musuhnya karena dia bisa beradaptasi melalui perubahan warna kulit di tempat dimana dia berada; kayu, rumput, tanah, dsb. Sekilas sepicik mirip kayak "muka dua" yah, alias gak punya jati diri. Menurut gue mah sebaliknya; jati dirinya adalah easy going dan adaptable.  Nggak banyak orang yang punya skill nge-bunglon. Menurut gue orang-orang ini ya berprinsip "gue ya gue, gak mau pretend jadi apa yang bukan gue". Padahal ada juga kelebihan dan keuntungannya mudah dan MAU beradaptasi; more friends, more things to kearn and more experiences. Bukan salah juga sih kalo ada orang yang berpendapat karakter bunglon itu plin-plan dan suka menjilat supaya aman dan bisa diterima. Mereka juga memilih "mending gua gak banyak temen tapi sedikit temen ya...

So I was asked (or slightly pushed) by a senior lecturer in my uni where I work to join a speech contest. It was a 5-minutes presentation competition. I thought "oh shit what would I say? this sounds like an academic smart pants event" then I said "oke deh ma'am saya coba ya" for all I hope this is just like a bully thing for new lecturers. I like talking anyway, I just need to find a good topic that I could master and present. After thinking and browsing for a while, I was reminded to this funny and interesting ad  about bus and I tried to relate it with a theory that is not too hard but also interesting. Ta da~ I came up with a rhetoric approach on advertising! On the D-day of the competition, it was a Lecturers Convention btw, I was bloody nervous. I drawed as the very last contestant to present and my fellow lecturers were all so prepared and when it came to my turn, I barely felt my knees. I was sooooooo nervous as I knew all the audiences will be...

Abel itu... Lovely. Ngeselin, tapi lovely. Sepulang dari nonton film tadi malem, kami jalan menelusuri food court PIM 2 menuju Shihlin; wacananya gue mau bungkus buat sarapan. Lalu Abel bilang "aduh lagi batuk gitu ga usah Shihlin deh lada merica pedes, yang lain aja" Lalu gue nurut, bener juga, makin parah batuk gue nanti kalo ngikutin nafsu. Akhirnya beli burger. Trus Abel komen clutch bag baru gue, "gak ribet ya bawa tas ga ada pegangannya gitu harus diketekin?" Gue jawab "nggaklah ini justru praktis gak nyakitin pundak atau punggung" Lantas Abel bilang "ya tapi kan tangannya jadi gak bebas" Simpel, gue hajar "ya tanganku bebas juga ga ada yang megangin"  Sekedip kode terbaca, telusupan tangan gue di lengan Abel dipindahkannya ke tangannya. Hore gandengan! Sampe di lantai basement, sebelum menuju mobil, gue menunjuk gerai Share-tea. Spontan uhuy gue berseru "aku mau share-tea!" Kata Abel "yaudah beli" Selang beber...