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bukan semata-mata karena lagi ditinggal mama ke luar kota, bukan juga karena maag lagi kambuh melanda, apalagi karena capek kerja, but I felt like I bloody wanted to write.   I never knew what was in my boyfriend's head when he sent me pictures of him being in Emirates Stadium. Most boys, regardless with football-enthusiastic girlfriends or not, are going to be totally reckless and careless about any other things when it comes to their favourite football team. My boyfriend? So not!!! He had the time to tell me how it went: Giroud versi aku! I was honestly exhausted from work and fell asleep immediately after I hit the bed. I skipped dinner and I still managed to hear his voice before I went to sleep. I tell you what? There's this difference between sending a voicenote when you really mean it, and the live phone call one when you're not in the mood; voicenote wins! Too great, my boyfriend has this amazing voice recorded with full-heart to me the nights before, and whe...

"What's with the candle, love?" "I upset you yesterday, didn't I? Should have not proposed you that early, we should take it slow" "Hey, if there was anyone who upset anyone, it's me upsetting you, I'm sorry. I really wish I could say yes, but, I just don't want to fake it and be unsure about it" "It's okay, I love how we talk about anything confidently like this, randomly and nicely" "I love this too! I don't want things to change!" "I love your smile" "Oh come on, you make this feels like a second date! Stop it! hahaha..." "And I love when you're blushing" "Dude, break it off! Hahaha.." "What do you like about me, when we're having dinner?" "Umm, there are many! You want me to name one? It's absurd!" "Come on, on the top of your head?" "Your gentle hand on mine" "And?" "You said on the ...

"it was a no, so sorry guys." "ooh, what's wrong?" "well, she looked like she's not ready yet to settle down... with me" "fuck no, she must be undermining herself too much, right? I don't understand why, she's been so fine with everything about you guys, your family both, your friends, the work, and us, the your-boyfriends!" "I know, right! There must be something to fix, I gotta re-propose to her!" "Yeah, you better man! I know how much you want to be with her. But you gotta be sure that re-proposing is the best thing. And make sure she will say yes this time" ----- "Do you wanna hang around the casual? Or a dinner?" "Yeah, a dinner would work, I'll be hungry by that time, dear! Besides, the waitress aren't so flirtatious there with you, handsome!" "Haha, they cannot beat you in any way!" "I know, I've got your heart and full-attention just the way y...

"What drove you so mad, man?" "I don't know. She's having this major disturbance in her head. She's just constantly changing and I think it's gonna be a hard living ahead with her." "Totally, dude! I thought you've gone insane. How're you gonna handle her? What if she said yes?" "She will, eventually, I just feel right when I'm with her. She's broken, but still, she does everything for me. This is worth the risk and consequences, I guess." "What if she leaves you?" "That is.... I don't know. She's done so much to me that marrying her is the only choice I can nicely do in return. I wanna be with her with all she is." "You don't know what you're gonna miss man" "Oh, trust me I know, though I haven't thought of how will I do it. But, come on. It's her. She's worth the losing all these bastard things with my buddies. I wanna grow up, sit down ...

"this is a truly big event. I'm grateful for your participation and passion in this. remember, it's like a life to us; if you succeed, then you've gained it. if you failed, then you're being given a lesson. don't run away from the risk and consequences, just be prepared. and take the leap." "hey, sorry to cut you off, I need to make a call to my boyfriend one minute!" "where are you going?" "answering his proposal last night" -to be continued-

"Getting married? Are you... Serious..ly nuts?" "What? Why?" "Are you sure wanna be attached.. To me?" "Yeah, hell yeah I do, do you?" "It's not the idea of, you know, being with you for the rest of my life. It's about spending the time only with one person; me. Aren't we gonna be bored to each other? Are we gonna go home and tell the truth that we miss the free single living? Are we really gonna be open up about anything to each other..." "Yes, yes, yes. We're gonna share everything, we wake up next to each oter, we fight about many things, we make up to our best, we grow up and grow old together.." "How are we gonna do all that?" "How have we been doing all that? How did we survive this relationship?" "Well, seriously, you're like very perfect for me, but am I?" "Yes, you are. Trust me you are. If there's anyone in this world that I'd like to spend my li...

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