what does?

kemarin saya ketemu dengan teman saya di taman sekolah. dia tanya kenapa saya nggak jualan donat lagi di taman itu, padahal kalo bulan puasa, omzet bisa naik gila-gilaan. saya bilang saya nggak tertarik lagi dengan donat.

"it has been part of your life since you were a kid"

"i know, i just don't see it that interesting anymore. it has no sense of art"

"what do you mean"

"this is what i called unreasonable sudden stop. i just stop liking it"

"that doesn't make sense"

"nothing in this world does"

"anyway, are you going to start a new business?"

"i'm planning to set up another food stall, i just haven't thought of what would it be"

"what about ice cream?"

"thanks, i'll put that on my list"

"i don't see you bring your pen to note down"

"no, i don't take notes literally. if it's important, i'll remember it"

"whatever. good luck. i gotta go"

"see you around"

saya liat dia pergi, lalu saya terjebak lagi dalam pikiran dan pertanyaan yang sama: kenapa seseorang bisa tiba-tiba tidak menyukai sesuatu? hormonal? kontekstual? logical? random.

lalu saya berpikir, bagaimana kalo suatu hari saya tidak lagi menganggap tidur atau makan adalah suatu yang menarik untuk dilakukan? will i stop? random.